I understand where you are coming from, though I started differently. I picked up a cheep bow off sleezbay after I decided to give archery a try, and before I decided that I want to start making bows.
That rushed feeling might not end until you get your own bow built. It's a constant battle with myself over that. I have to tell my self regularly that I'm not in a hurry, and that I need to take my time. If you can, find someone that can teach you in person, that would be great! Frankly, I wish I had that option!!!
JS