Hello everyone. Yes I am still kicking, just not high at all. I came here first to pass on what I can tell you about what is going on in my life as of right now.
Through the last several weeks, I have been seeing several doctors, in just about every field there is and finally got some results from I don't know how many test that has been run. But, I was sat down with my now new primary care doctor this morning to tell me the news and what is going to take place from here on out, at least for a while.
Years ago, back in the 80's if believe it was, I was that I had manic-depression. I was put on some serious beta blocker medicine and at that time it worked and did me good. I felt great, and became mostly human again after that. Fast forward to 3 years ago.
When I started having all this balance issue and testing and this and that, and no idea what all medications I have tried or taken all these times, some have helped and some no so much. Any way, after the operation on my ear last year, things got really bad in the depression department for me. No knowing what was going on, we all though depressed because of what I was going through. Loosing my job, going on disability, having cars repoed, and on an on. Well now, that was not actually all that was happening.
I was told this morning that I in fact have manic-depression. That is what it was called years ago before all this new and scientific studies were and have been done. Do you know what it really is?? It is BI-POLAR. Yes,,,,,BI-POLAR. Or that is what I am being told.
If it is, it would explain a lot of things over the last few years. Loss of concentration in things that I love to do??? Yeap gone. Making hasty decisions on purchasing things to do something new....OH YEAH....DEFINATELY. Wanting to help everyone any way I can and getting excited,,,MANY MANY MANY TIMES, only to loose interest and not do it?Huh? Sound familiar? yeah a lot of things that I promised that never got done. And so many other feelings that I just will not go into.
So in the next two weeks, I start a new medication today that has more side effects that can be put in Websters Dictionary. I have to monitor every thing I do and eat for those two weeks, how long I sleep, how I feel and on and on, and go back to see my new doctor August 16Th.
If this is so, I have a new lease on life, although a challenging one, but one that can be controlled so I am told. I just need, with their help to find the old me and give him back to me.
For anyone that over the last 3 years that I have made promises to, made deals with and not completed, I am truly sorry. But I can honestly say, It was not Charlie Jefferson making those promises and deals at that time, it was some one I never want to know or meet again. An I will try over time to remember them and make good on them if at all possible.
So for me now, it is a hurry up and wait deal to see what happens, a lot of trial and error I am sure, but with God's grace, I will come through this and enjoy a better life.
I hope you all understand..
Thanks and God Bless
Charlie Jefferson.
