Cipriano I was so glad to read that your dad had recovered then the roller coaster ride back down. Hang in there. I think the numb feeling is kinda our defense mechanism and totally natural. It's not that you don't have feelings it's just that in these times we have to suppress some of those feelings to be able to do the things we need to do for ourselves and our loved ones. Don't give up on praying, sometimes we have to change our prayers but never give them up. My son had a brain tumor when he was 7 months old. He had 54 surgeries by age 5. Many times I didn't even know what to ask for in my prayers anymore, I just asked for strength. I'm happy to say it's been 13 years since his last surgery and he is doing well. I still thank the lord every day. I pray for strength and peace for your mom and dad and entire family. Peace be with you
Bjrogg