Hello Lowell. I'm sorry to hear the bad news, but in all reality it's just news. I'm not trivializing, but I've lost more deer hit with high caliber rifles because if hit more with them. However, I have lost two deer hit with a compound and thunderheads. That was back in the old days.. I still have yet to draw back on a deer with primitive gear.
No worse feeling than losing an animal. No matter what you hit it with. The sleepless nights, the guilt, the questions and the doubts all swirl around in your head. That just demonstrates that you did everything you possibly could to ethicly find the deer you shot.
It's hard not to beat yourself up over something like this, but you've got to get back on that horse. It happens. A few weeks ago my daughter was bucked off a horse forward over his head. It was at a 4H event. She got right back on that horse.
I have my own "horses" I struggle with and some I have yet to tame and conquer. I'm not doing a good job with the actual subject matter of angle and stone points and penetration, but this is what I know.
Here lately I've had my fair share of "horses" I have been struggling with.
I wasn't in the military, but from reading and learning I have learned that military training kicks in like natural instinct. Even when it's not logical to "advance" the training kicks in and soldiers advance even at unreasonable odds. I'm a student of literature and made this discovery and its my own original theory and I have not seen it in print before:
48 As the Philistine moved closer to attack him, David ran quickly toward the battle line to meet him. 49 Reaching into his bag and taking out a stone, he slung it and struck the Philistine on the forehead. The stone sank into his forehead, and he fell facedown on the ground.
In this example, David was a boy without any training in the art of warfare, yet despite that fact he charged on against an enemy superior to him by all accounts.
Moral of this is get back on that horse. Pursue your dream of hunting primitively and take the failures not as failures, but as success in your learning curve...
Cipriano