good luck sir
i do not know you but i am divorced with a son. and i wish you the best.
my best advice is never involve them. i just spend every second i have with the boy. keeping our bond strong.
my only goal being being the best father possible.
it has worked for me 9 years.
keep beating on the stones sir. sometimes every flake i take from the stone clears my mind a little more.
other things work too. i found throwing myself off waterfalls in a kayak works well to