Parnell, this may be none of my business, but I wonder if I might share a story with you, and maybe make a suggestion. I'm not sure if you live in a rural or urban area, but if there are any dog rescue groups in your area, you may want to consider fostering dogs. I think it may really benefit you. My girlfriend and I have been doing it since last September, and there are so many great things about it. I don't want to write a novel, but here's just a few:
-Knowing that you're saving a dog that would otherwise be put down
-The satisfaction you get from being able to work with dogs with some "issues" that other people are too lazy or impatient to deal with, and seeing real results
-Most rescue groups will cover all expenses for the dog while in your care (from food to vet bills, leashes, etc.)
-You get the chance to experience the personalities of different breeds
-And the big one for you - if you stumble across one that you just can't part with, you can ADOPT it!
We just happened to start fostering about 1 week before the tragic loss of our chocolate lab, Skully. She had a freak accident just before her second birthday. The circumstances of just how it happened made it very hard to deal with. She was my best friend and those couple weeks after were some of the worst days I've had. I've lost grandparents, uncles, aunts, but never before did I grieve like I did for that dog. Anyway, my point is not to depress you, but to tell you how much having other dogs around helped me to carry on and eventually accept that Skully was gone.
We weren't planning on getting another dog right away (other than the foster dogs), but Kelly just happened to be looking at some classifieds one day, and saw an add for some chocolate lab pups. After looking a bit closer we saw that they had the same father that Skully did. We saw this as a sign, but asked ourselves, are we really ready for another pup? (Skully was a CRAZY pup, and after a year and a half, she had just started to mellow out). After some thinking we thought we'd call them for the hell of it. The add was about a month old so we didn't have much hope. But it turned out they had one pup that someone had already claimed and backed out on, and then was claimed again by someone else. She said if we made it there before the other person, she was ours. We figured that it was meant to be, so the next day we went to get her. And what an angel she turned out to be... just the polar opposite of Skully's personality. We are so blessed to have got Bailey.
Anyway, here's some pictures of some of my dogs, and some of the foster dogs that I've had the good fortune of getting to know over the last 6 months. I hope you will consider fostering!
Me and Skully, my best buddie
Tara and Skully
Bailey and her siblings
Scooby and Bailey
Honey